Losing myself

I miss my bb alot. And sometimes quite upset when knwing other girl friends is more imprt than me. I went crazy last night and un understand why I does that. I knew history might repeat and the phobia kept coming bck. Just hopin he doesnt change which is probably almost impossible. Upset. Disappointment. But I do know he cares for me but I cannot stand my Bf to have to girl best fren and worst when I'm sick ,he's with them. I really upset. Bt I could only pray he's different. :(