Nightmare , sweetdreams

We left. Not for the beta ones but beta understanding in future. Upset and glad. To know a man like him it's a memories worth keeping. Get to love deep again and trust again really took loads of courage. Im one if I choose to love, I love it wholeheartedly. There is no deep or shallow just yes or no. A man who let me tears yet smiling at times, his the first. I probably could not weigh if this time this love is stronger or weaker,or I love him more than previous. Bt to know I'm once loved by a man who told me I'm his deepest. I felt worth. Things get worse before it gets beta. Seriously, friends? If one day, a man truly want you so much, friends are not going to be the next thing he thought of anytime, bt how to make u keep the smile all time. I gt stable and supporter friends who always there for me even I Mia-Ed so often each time I'm in love. But their concern is not me not showing them face but getting hurt again. Becos I have nv once give up on love so easily even bruises and tears, I'm always the one staying thou it might not works. The one who don't learn to give my heart bit by bit but in full form. If one's friend meant so much to them how much does your smile worth? We both know the result and see it coming, we just do not dare to step back to see the whole image becos we are so afraid to lose. One's heart cannot be filled with happiness if their brim is full with troubles. Don't ask me why i can get over or feel beta so fast, becos I possessed strong psychology skills and so are my friend. I'm never one who get with somebody to used somebody. :) becos by smiling before and after u left it's the most beautiful memories you gave to the one u love. And be happy becos u know what both wants. And able to pickup and walk again. It could be my worst nightmare to see you but the end result of a sweet dreams becos I know you. the very last memories I kept with was the best and the sweetest, I'm surprise when we left, It leaves me no hate against you. And wanted to be friend. Becos I know you are meant to be one of them who can understand more given the space to. I love you. Goodbye lover and hello familiar.